After an hour or two of the daily evening walk, I tell myself that I should go back home and read. But sometimes, I want to keep walking with my friend. I want to sleep at 4 am after Netflixing zombie movies back to back. I want to wake up late and then write and let the day design its own schedule.
But during those zombie movies, I keep looking at the watch. The MacBook throws the battery low warning but I don’t plug in the charger as I want the computer to sleep its natural course. And then we can sleep too. But then we stay awake some more and talk about our lives.
As every hour passes by, I realize that my waking up time is getting shifted by one hour and that I had to sleep early and start the next day with a fresh run in the morning. But I continue the conversation as that was what I wanted to do in that moment.
Why can’t we do what we want to do when we want to do?
Why do we think about the future — the most uncertain and unpredictable — and not about now?
What do we want out of life?
Why do we wait for Sundays to lunch with our family?
Why do we make a house and live in it and go to the office and come back to do the same all over again?
How do we choose between ambition and happiness?
All successful people work hard. But is the whole process enjoyable? If not, what are they working towards? Eventually, they give all their earnings to charities. Clearly, money was not the reason (at least not for all of them). They make the Amor Fati, suffering in the language of the German Philosopher Nietzsche, an integral part of their lives.
Elon Musk stayed in office for forty-eight straight hours when he launched X.Com (now Paypal) to make sure everything worked. Not all of those continuous forty-eight straight hours would have been enjoyable.
But in spite of all the hard work, all these successful people are inspired and determined and focused.
Why have they made such choices that make them live their entire lives through unending challenges? Why don’t they focus on enjoying each moment?
Everyone says live in the present. Enjoy the present. But they also say, do what you are supposed to do.
Why don’t we indulge in momentary pleasures instead of delaying them to do what we are supposed to do?
I delve into philosophy to answer these questions. After all, Will Durant said, “Philosophy must provide a synthesis for wisdom.”
Though declared mad, the German Philosopher Friedrich Nietzsche left us with some of the most thought-provoking philosophy of the nineteenth century.
Nietzsche’s madness could be summed up in his own words, “Perhaps I know best why man is the only animal that laughs: he alone suffers so excruciatingly that he was compelled to invent laughter.”
Everything that he said haven’t, yet, made sense. Will Durant said that he died an early death and did not live to see fallacies in his own arguments. But the world philosophers also concluded that Nietzsche’s book Thus Spoke Zarathustra was one of the best books of the time.
Because Nietzsche offers us not only a philosophy but a new hope and a new goal for the whole humanity and for each one of us.
As per Nietzsche, the goal of the humanity is to evolve into its better version. The goal of all of us is to surpass ourselves. The purpose is not to be happy all the time and enjoy all the time and suffer no suffering. The purpose is to become who we think we are and to accept suffering as a part of this journey. Click To Tweet
Strongly against nihilism, Nietzsche said that we should believe in willpower, goals, ambition — all of which leads to creation. And this will of creation should be so strong that it undermines everything else.
Some people want to read thirty books a year. To be able to do that, some nights they might have to oppose the inertia of continuing watching the TV and instead read. When they start reading, they enjoy, but the initiation might not have been effortless.
Life is divided into such moments of impulse and of conscious decisions, moments of immediate and impending pleasures.
When we let the will of creation overpower us, it makes us mindful in these moments. All these present moments would aggregate and bring us closer to where we think we should be or who we should become, which, in turn, would make us happy and satisfy us on a longer run.
As soon as we start accepting the suffering that comes as part of this will and work, our mind would also relax.
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Thousands of words that I write won’t reach anyone. It would take me hours and days and months and years of ass-numbing struggle in a plastic chair in my room, in the company of a switched-off phone, minimal materialistic pleasures, and rejections from publications.
All of this for what? To keep moving towards the meaningful life that I have designed in my head for myself.
Everyone’s reasons are different. Some of us want to run marathons. Some of us want to be the best coders. Some of us want to hike up Kilimanjaro. Some of us want to be the best fathers.
We all regulate our lives to achieve what we want to achieve. And it is okay — because we are moving towards a version of ourselves and our surroundings which is more meaningful to us, which we think is meant for us.
You cannot avoid some suffering on this journey. That was never the goal.
If Benjamin Franklin, Martin Luther King, Mahatma Gandhi, Einstein, Nelson Mandela, Steve Jobs had all spend their lives in momentary pleasures without going through any struggles, the world would have been devoid of electricity, peace, independence, democracy, energy, and baffling technology.
You might have already chosen a path — your purpose, your desire.
Remember — Your willpower is your boat over the river of your life. It keeps you afloat. You have to keep rowing in the direction of your purpose. You need to engage in the right activity at the right time. But designing the right activity and its right time is in your hands.
Let us adapt to Nietzsche’s formula — surpass ourselves to become our better future version — whatever that is for each one of us. Let us be independent, carve our own path, work towards our ambitions, and accept some pain as part of life to achieve great ambitions. Enjoyment would come and go as we progress in this journey but it is not the only important component.
Let us find out what is important for us to become who we want to be.
That is the only ambition. That is the only goal.